Would you rather?

Be enslaved for hard labour for your lifetime

Or,

Locked up for the rest of your life

Or 

be told repeatedly that you are something (or someone) you are not until you no longer trust yourself ?

Insanity/immortality

What if north american societies depiction of crazy is really the key to regeneration; would you want to be crazy or sane?

First time

The first of everything is always a novelty.

Ass

If BBC added randomizing feature sizes (like you know how they have a-z, then aa,ab,ac,ad,ae... Ba, bb,bc,bd,-bz,ca-cz,da-dz.........za,zz,aaz-azz-zzz,azzz-azzzz...They can continue on indefinitely without repeating a combination. I don't know who they is or what they are combining but applied to generic faces----)

Would that make it better?

Would you notice each difference?

Would you notice SOME difference?

What percentage?

Are you a better person because you can tell bcyldjrbv apart from shush dh?

(Look^^ we've evolved to include spaces!)

What does it mean when you can't see HF without seeing he. Even though they have the same amount of connections as any other combination...

Their appearances may be too close to discern.

Grossness

How long will you keep food in the fridge PAST edibility?

Yknow when food gets to that point where you are like ehh... I *might* consider eating that- how long would you keep something in the fridge after that?

I've heard comments of fuzzy dishes in the fridge, and I have seen moldy products in fridges before.

It's like one of the grossest things to me.

Do you think this is a problem with society, due to availability to food? And demands placed that make it difficult to consume food to functionly benefit.

Or is it a problem with an individual being wasteful, or ignorant to food shortages?

Is this not a problem to anyone else ? Does it happen to anyone else?

How often does it happen to you, or that you see?

My friends told me she spent 35$ on groceries for about 10 days worth of food.

I would be licking my fridge and floors for nutrients with what I would manage to buy with that money.

And yet I wonder if she ever has bad food to throw away?

Squirrels and bees.

Is it speciest or whatever to paint all squirrels at my house as enemies because my garden was nibbled on multiple times by "them"?

I used to feed them peanuts, even with a cat and dog, the animals were taught to not bark or chase them.. But then came my garden problems, and I encouraged my dog to scare them (and the raccoons ) off... Now a squirrel came for the forgotten peanut butter jar, something I have always allowed and I coaxed my dog into running the squirrel.. Perhaps not a garden thieving squirrel, but a general squirrel- off my deck and property.

And what is with these fucking bees? I let them live, time Nd time again Nd now they act like they are at home in my home, not just spared in the belief of non-return.

When they are swatted away they buzz intensely while clinging , raging against the door or wall or whatever, until the seeming anger dissipates and they slick their antennas back... I can almost hear them saying its Ok it's cool. I've got it under control. I'm impressed by bees rage control. 

OMG. It's in my hair. 

Ugliness.

How do you look past ugliness?

That part of you that wants to run and hide from something, or someone ... Even though you stand Nd smile be ause its your superior, or, peer pressure. You out of hundreds, or hundreds upon thousands find something they all find so serene so beautiful you can't help hit notice just one.. Overwhelmingly ugly quality you don't understand how others can't   see!

How do you ignore that part - or better, how do you accept it instead?

Helping hands.

Do you like to help people?

... Do you know how to tell if people want to be helped? If they want your help?

Will you still help people if they don't want to be helped... Because they are clearly struggling; maybe you think they are just too proud to ask for help but really actually need it...

Or maybe you think that if you don't help they will fail, so you attempt to save them (like for example someone is trying to balance boxes and they look like they will tip in the next 2 seconds even if the person stood perfectly still - you are in such a position that a simple outreach would prevent the fall; do you only help people struggling if they ask for help?

Can you tell when a person is struggling with a project; and also struggling to ask for, or perhaps accept help...Or if they are struggling to keep focused and wanting only to not be distracted- focusing inwards on a personal goal.

Can you tell what separates these moments?

Perhaps you help them thinking, like with the boxes that the balance could not be kept - but had you NOT interfered, the balance still wouldn't have tipped.

Do you believe it is always good to help people?

Please leave your responses. I will reply to every one.

*begs mercifully*

I'm very motivated by validation or discussion. 

This is sad isn't it..

I'm sad:( I'm sad nobody ever leaves comments.

I've considered responding anonymously.

.... Or I wonder if ill ever respond without acknowledging.. Like sleep-commenting, or because I've been possessed.. Another part of me took control...😇

Heaven : pearly cage

Do you believe someone is gone in death, or altered?

I say altered. They become everything around you. To me, reassurance after death is something along the lines of .. I can feel the deceased all around me, still alive through the trees and the wind.

To hear other say they are waiting somewhere for me upsets me because I don't want to feel obliged to be in one place to see loved ones.

It worries me that god loving people are really signing their souls away to a cage.. Like they actually may be gone... But the rest of the universe lives and thrives recycling its energy while you remain trapped... Or perhaps it wouldn't matter because you are happy there and your happiness is your most important thing. Only you can control it, and you. 

So happiness to those signing themselves to live in a.. "Equal billing" life stages.

Your captor, god, will protect you from the outer life forms outside his cage... Regardless of who they Are.. And own you in the process, forced to live for eternity choosing to live in gods pearly cage. 

Dream journal

I just stumbled across my old dream journals from 2004 and around there.

I don't remember writing most of them! One or two I vividly remember. I apparently also had a conversation with my neice in writing ; part of me thinks yah!.. That happened! Another part is like.. What the fuck?!

I wonder if maybe I wrote both sides pretending to be her..

What if she didn't remember it?

Would that indicate my lacking sanity?

Or simply that we both don't remember?

I wonder how much of my memory is accurate.. If I maybe misgauged or didn't quite process  the details at the time of recording.... My memory may be skewed as well.

Even if without the recording of my memory, the recollection would bring to light the misunderstandings.

Or maybe you wouldn't recall at all.

Can you maneuver that fine line.. Knowing when to both hold on to your memories, and knowing when to let them go?

Can you walk that tight rope?

Life is a roller coaster

I don't think I could possibly say fuck enough times and with enough different meanings to adequately convey how I'm feeling. Fuck.

If life is a roller coaster.. Have I mentioned I'm scared of heights?

What if vaccines...

Were really triggers to work together with virus, not be immune.

What if the people behind it are the reptilian species hiding in our meat suits pushing all people to join their races??

To allow their species (via virus) to take over body or mind control?

... Would it be so bad if we could work together in one body?

Super shiver

I was listening to my husbands playlist and as the song pulls me in with its touching chorus "I want to be left alone" as my rythym intensifys and the song begins to sway me as I cut long stems of green onion... Just as I've declared my desire to be all alone - I cut into a stalk containing a writhing and halved earwig.

Horrified I stepped away, letting it be alone - but had to end its misery and chopped it again and its pieces went flying and I shuddered and brushed myself off, smacked myself off trying to remove any potential debris.

The body discovered I still can't stop squirming myself, imagining the bug in my onion.

I'm not sure if I want to use the onion...

I'm leaning towards yes.

Thoughts?

..

Thought?😟

... This seems an appropriate time to also share that some species of earwigs actually have wings. This thought also horrifies me.

I think I shall not sleep tonight...

Perfect human

Is there such thing as a perfect human?

.. A "correct" ratio one should fall into between height and maybe hips.. Or shoulders... Width somewhere, and height.. Some mathematical equation that could give you a perfect physical being?

What about a perfect brain?

A mind that connects to the very soul of the earth... Thinking the most purest thoughts... Would that be perfect?

If there is no perfect, no correct way of being...

How can there be an incorrect way to life? How can laws dictate what's wrong - when there is no right?

So what's right?

Cicadas

Cicadas so loud I can barely think. The world is safe..... For now👽😎

Why would I ???

Want to be limited to heaven when the entire universe is at my fingertips?

Truths to live by

Always breathe through your nose when able.

Dressing up.

Do you feel compelled to dress a certain level?

Growing up anytime I wore a dress or anything pretty I was often questioned throughout the day "why did you dress up? What did you get all dressed up for today?"

In hindsight I can wonder if that's people's ways of showing appreciation? Or complimenting? It always made me feel accused.

Anyone want to offer some insight?

What if you were comfortable in outrageous clothing; like formal wear?

Perspective, hallucinations.

Lately I've been thinking that hallucinations are seeing into other worlds.

I can see a man eating dinner with his wife when suddenly the diner is exchanged with a giant octopus party and the man, so small beside the massive 8 legged boisterously drinking ... Octopus...looks to his right and sees a giant squid lunging for its face.(I was trying to think of another word above, it just came to me. Squid/octopus?

Close enough.

See in my world / if someone is hallucinating they need help to be called out if the door. Maybe some people are happier in other dimensions, where leprechauns run freely perhaps:).. But instead of telling people they don't exist I think / ok they do exist -- just back away, and close the door. Or even just turn away.

Not denied the reality.

Techno music

Techno mucic is really freaking me out right now. 

It's like... Does it end ! ?

Is there an ending to this song?

I'm really freaking out right now because this song just continues to loop and twist in and out up and down. A rythym you can't break away of no way to end. And then the new song starts and unless you can confirm this you don't KNOW!! You can question and you ponder but until you are recaptured in the inevitable loop you don't KNOW that yes is for sure a new song.

Does anybody else feel that way? 

Senses

It's interesting to live in a world where there is noise pollution in several locations, lights in every direction..

Scents from all around....

And to compare it to a world where its just you and your output.

Just a half thought About cancer..

I haven't touched cancer much, since I almost found the cure and all.. It was disappointing to be so close and then have my clouds dissipate.... (Only relevant to BBC)

But

https://asunews.asu.edu/20130712_pauldavies_cancer_research

http://conspiro.org/showthread.php?tid=109

Very interesting links about how cancer is in everybody right from birth.

... it says anything can really set the cancer off - Which works with my theory of "bumping" I figure if I live life in such a way that I don't excuse myself from the pack, and as such am occasionally bumped and pushed or nudged... So long as I move steady in the pack it feels right.

(Just physically. I think cancer is very physical)

Bar fights vs debates

Which waged first? A battle of wit or strength?
Why is one acceptable but not the other?
Why is freedom of speech protected by law,  but numerous actions can incarcerate you? Are both, if attacks, not equally offensive and equally painful?

Dexterity

Dexterity is so important in self care.
Could you imagine not having the dexterity to wash your own body? Scratch an itch you can't reach?
And most painfully when the person you ask to help you insists they cannot, or are genuinely unable to understand you?

Is self care more or equally as important as education or mental stimulation?
If they carried two thirds the weights of a wheel, and social awareness carried the remaining third
--would they be equal weights or no?
What is the dividing line between the three?
Body maintenance; such as clothing/dressing, excersize, diet possibly, dental care, eye care, shaving/waxing/plucking, nails, bathing?


Communications - being able to make individual sounds or communicating effectively? Are these things you learn to keep your comprehension of language stimulated, or to make sure you are part of society, or is it something you do because it is essential to your life?

Or are they all essential to life?
... Again I come back to, are they equally essential then?


This is like.. 1/10 this whole thought but I can't follow all my directions.

My first real breAk

Toes don't count, right???

After a disaster of a beach trip in which my ds wanted nothing more than another beach-goers inflatable rowboat, we soon left the sandy area and headed up some rocks towards the showers. .. Which, if I knew where I was would have taken me 8 minutes to get to. Instead about an hour later we ended up back at the beach (thank god, because there was a while there I was worried- no cell phone, large campsite, no sense of direction:/ thank god remaining family at the beach was loud, we followed the voices and all finally headed back to the showers. Gave my dog, ds and me a shower, and headed back to our campsite to climb MORE rocks. I love climbing told, this was by far my fave. Aspect of this campsite, the beach was awesome, but I love scaling me some rocks:)

After another 30 mins heckling out some deer beyond the rocks, we realized we forgot something, an I knew already if I went back down I wasnt coming up. hadn't eaten, been on the go non-stop for almost 3 hours, hadn't slept well because our yet zipper was broken and I was scared out dog would run away .. (Again.) so I start heading down, looking forward to sitting quietly. Just a few boulders away from the fire pit and I step down with my evil-crocs on and hear the loudest crack - which really didn't sound much different than a typical hour crack except for being like 20 times louder!

Instantly I react by making sure my foot was aligned. Good move? Bad move? I don't know. No fucking way was I letting my ankle remain bent if it even actually had been though.

I'm sitting there, my husband asking if I'm ok I tell him I think I broke my ankle, please remain calm and get me some water.

He takes our son to get water.. My son is a bit spacey (thanks mom/autism) and somehow got smacked by the car door; husband out.

Dearest daughter, mommy could *really* use some water, would you please get me some? Down she goes. Not quite processing the urgency she's not even half way casually sauntering down the rocks and my vision begins to darken, the view looked like a water colour painting, still wet as black drops fell and spread until almost the whole picture was covered.

Just before I laid down I called one last hope - a friend at the campsite I yelled down to. Finally I had some water and everyone was calm.

Unable (or unwilling to try) to move, my husband carries me down the last few rocks as I lovingly tell him that I've always dreamed of this moment, which I regretted admitting when we were both laughing and I started picturing both of us falling.

Just as we are about to reach the chairs set across from each other for me to rest, the only usable vehicle in our campsite comes back with the drivers face obviously figuring out some crisis.

And there begins the 7 hour hospital experience, involving lots of pedicure jokes, and thoughts of how little I will have to do (wrong- lifting your body with your arms is a lot of work.) and how I planned it so my husband would be stuck doing it all..

Reality is way less fun than my thoughts.

It's hard to pee.

It's hard to see my husband doing everything and not be able to help.

It's hard to want what I want and not be able to do it myself, there's only so much I'm willing to ask for that I can't do.

Here's to quick and excellent healing:)

*drinks drink I would have if I could walk yet*

I can't wait till I can see my X-ray photos on a computer:)

Thoughts while camping

Fear of crazy people,
Fear of strong people,
Fear of different people.
Why are you scared of people?
Why does fire always pull up

While gravity always pushes back down?


~~~

Do you support society, or do you fight to change?
Why are the rules so important when the rules are so ignorant?






Also I'm thinking I'm really scared a bear will attack me.

Spiders.

If you have been letting a spider live in your house, and your spouse kills it...

Is that any worse than having a pet like a dog living in your house and your spouse killing that?

What if they never approved of the pet in the first place?

Does it matter if its a caged spider (like a tarantula that perhaps escaped its confines) or a daddy long legs hanging out by the back door?

Does it matter if your spouse knew it was your pet, or not?

Survival of the fittest.

If you are only as strong as you are because of society, are you really part of the strongest?

According to egalitarianism as a revolt against nature*,  the belief of egalitarianism is to make all people equal?

Why can't we treat all people with equal respect and give them equal "starting kits" and allow our species to diverge naturally? Or stay integrated and struggle or benefit -but with equal backgrounds. 

I think one of the great benefits of our diversity is we all offer different qualities.. But I don't think they can be utilized in such a limited society.

*http://www.redicecreations.com/article.php?id=23670  (its really long. )


What do you consider to be egalitarianism? The people being equal, or opportunities being equal?

New building technology

I just read this link on roman architecture; they have discovered how to replicate this Eco-friendly well-maintainable cement from volcanic ash and lime juice in salt water. I paraphrase poorly.

I think this is very fascinating; I think a lot of health problems relate to being in societies cage.
I think our species is growing -- but being confined to these 8 feet ceilings (both in dreams and buildings).  I think with this understanding of better technology we will be able to rebuild our cities to be better and faster than ever before... This seems like  huge step towards that:)


Here's the link;)
http://mobile.businessweek.com/articles/2013-06-14/ancient-roman-concrete-is-about-to-revolutionize-modern-architecture#r=hpt-ls

What just happened there?

(There being, an hour or two ago)


Did anyone else notice outside darken just a little?
This is not the first time I recall momentary glitches in brightness from my eyes, but the first time in a long time I actually recognized what was happening; I can vaguely recall as a child maybe.. 6-9? Wondering if my eyes were malfunctioning because of the same thing. This time though, I think.. I wonder how big and fast, and how far away whatever just went past the sun was.
Or maybe a portal just opened.. I wonder what got through???;)

Reactions

How do your reactions compare to others??

I tend to over react.

Dh under reacts. And not just under.. But delayed (I'm also really quick to react)

My dd is more like me and ds like dh.

Can you, and how can you , change your reactions??

I stay in this lovely online world a lot because it forces me to delay my reactions, and reconsider how I react. Can't change my instant thought but no one is here to see my very facially visible reactions;)

But can one actually delay or speed up how fast they react to something?

Just to go another step further - I am quick emotionally to react, but in terms of following a process, I am very slow to react. Process may be the wrong word.^^ above this was all considering emotional reactions anyways though:)

Straws

Straws have hardly been researched. How confident are you when you drink through a straw? Do you feel you are making the best decision?
What if the pull inside the straw causes temporal shifts? Or.. Maybe more realistically to some, a "chemical" shift.. From straw to mouth..
What if its just REALLY really bad for the environment? They are pretty small right... They should be pretty safe?

What if it was predicted...

That the human race was on a fast path to extinction. If there was the opportunity and possibility to transform into a further developed species.. Would you choose to?
If you could receive enough artificial transplants to change your entire being to carry an Artificial gene; complete with artificial INTELLIGENCE- at the intelligence provided by the quality or newness of the transplant. Could you imagine the world?

I wonder what technology is doing to us..
Or, eat enough fucking chicken for dinner, suddenly, you got wings? I'm talking like.. 10,000 wings in a day - you would need SO much fat and energy to make the transformation...  That couldn't be enough. Or it would take a really long time.

But if there is like just a sweat bead of chicken energy in there, and you need a cups worth in an instant..

I wonder what GMO foods will do to us...
Or what if energy was just transferred through touch?
Most things are absorbed through the skin...
Petting an iguana with enough frequency you adapt scales?
..
I wonder what our weaknesses will morph with.
Or maybe instead of artificial genes, or hybrid genes.. Some humans adapt to the trees? Constantly touching nature. I think the Concept of nature, as we currently know it to be, is on its final journey. I think when the leaves fall next, artificial or hybrid connections will form.. I think the path is already formed... But still "setting up" so to speak.
I can feel the groundwork being lain.
Natural will be prehistoric soon...

Vacuuming

I always enjoy finding new places to vacuum. You have the standards; under the bed, behind the appliances, maybe get the bulk off blinds, if you let it build up that much... I never..........
But I get excited when I find new places. We moved in here 4 years ago with all the appliances (and some of their stuff) already here. It's 36 stairs, 5 split levels. 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, spacious kitchen and spacious living room, with a little dining area in between. Basement, crawl space, laundry room.. And lastly the tiny strip of hallway with closet "front room" I've never ever thoroughly cleaned the house from top to bottom, as much as I deeply desire to. It's too much for my tiny muggle self. But it means I get to find these hidden crevices ever so often:)

Last year, our washing machine broke and it was the first time I had access to behind that - and discovered several hidden objects under!

Today, I realized the back of the dryer is just a wall of holes with lint all trapped beneath. Such a satisfying vacuum:)

Of course, nothing beats the calmness brought on by freshly vacuumed air:)
..assuming I didn't vacuum up enough particles to rip a hole in the universe:)

97/3

So I was with two friends today.

I think, in a behind the scenes kinda way there was a threesome unknowingly offered.

After I was investigated by an undercover agent, for a crime  I may or may not have committed. And I've decided my overall number is 97 and 3. Circumstances in my life have a 97% or 3 percent (give or take a percent /occasional severe deviation.)

That makes less sense written out- I could feel a 97% chance of bad things happening. Or 3% sometimes for bad.. I guess I would say every step is a 3% but yikes. 

And what if I wanted ??? No idea where I was going with that!!

Anyways;  i digress. HERES WHERE MY STORY REALLY STARTS.so, specifically I ask them, as etiquetily as possible, if they thought that satan was equal to god.

And instantly I get this... *vibe* which very well could have been entirely manifested by my own fear of offending someone, so I cover it up real fast and say .. Oh... That was just a social expirement.. the people on DT said that was rude.. Right.  

And my friend asks, what's a social experiment? 

And I had of course no idea, so I diverted the question to other friend, who said "like, sexual?" 

I said.. No.. But then i realized i dont actually know what a social experiment OMG SEXUAL EXPERIMENT that's what he heard that's hilarious. He thought I was talking about sexual experiments ! makes sense now *click*

(Lmao)

Anyways.

I said let me try-  well, sins I guess would include sex, so, that's taboo. That's bad so that's a social experiment. 

... Pretty much sums up how I described it. A lot of "hold on's" and "maybe.. Let me think" it was decisive.

But that's the gist. Oh and I asked my friend if she wanted some action I think. 

Bwahaha ha. Social / sexual. Language barriers suck (^^*~*randomly I'm going to say I think autism is just a language barrier too... But it's about either bringing the voices all together or spreading them out diversely on the spectrum. Can we work together to build a unanimous language?? 

Anyways.

That's what DT sent out to the world. 

Good job.

I have to pee from laughing at my own post so much. 

.. That's supposed to be in poor taste to admit isn't it?

Also regarding feedback- was that as funny after I edited it to make it cohesive?

I just want to know if I'm funny...

God or satan

Satan is lucifer who is a fallen angel for wishing to be as God.

Who do you side with?

Very simply translated 1 believes he is better than all, and some of all (assuming lucifer isn't the only) believe they are equal to 1.


What if god is simply your LITERAL father; Adam, if you will?
He is long dead, or perhaps an alien now living LIGHTYEARS AWAY, barely an hour has passed in his time, but as he lived here for many life times teaching his children of his unmatched godliness...
We continued to teach. An as we've evolved and taken in parts of the earth we have become far superior, especially on home base.

What if lucifer is the first son to stand up to his father and say, I don't want to be better than you, but I'd like to mate with another space alien And he shut off a service to this planet for us to live a life outside the universe.

What if aside from all of that, humans already exited and lucifer and god were both just a part of infinity amount of tiny little parasites mating within their own kinds (previously I've been imagining he's got several space hores who just can't keep their legs shut, this is their "hotel hour") and their home planet is amongst the earth not minds of our planet.


If you lived on another planet would earth be the equivalent for soil?
Like if humans were speaking universally, could we call it our earth, or would it be be better if I said soil?


Anyways.
If you had to pick lucifer or god, who would you pick?
...
If you could exist with OR without that influence, would you choose to benefit from it, or would it be a hindrance?

Therapy x2

Is the goal to make people less autistic, or, more comprehensive as an autistic person.?
Because if there are levels in how much a person on the far left shall we say of the autism spectrum- id like to paint autism red. On the other side of the spectrum NT is either an ascension of clarity, or a spectrum like any other mental disorder.
On the other side -is it a spectrum of opposites?? Or is it singular understanding to strive for?

Id like to decipher what makes someone NOT autistic.

Therapy

I've always kind of felt like therapies are a way to learn how to cope with anxiety. Or fear, or change.
It's teaching how to cope and how to learn from your sadness /anxiety etc.
It's to help you learn to think, and to try.
Not because you don't know how to think or try, but that you can't relay that effectively to someone who doesn't understand how you are thinking, or what you are trying.
So in therapies you learn to cross that bridge- but the therapies are as much for one understanding as the next.

Flowers

Forgive my google education if I'm wrong,
But RNA is a single strand gene, DNA is a double helix..
I read flowers have 20 strands, I've read of sirian something which is evolution involving a higher strand count, and that we (our species) likely had just RNA in paleo times.

So our flowers more evolved than us?
Should we think flower...

<edit-- thinking bee???? .. Clue to my joke..>

If our DNA strand evolved from single strand to a double strand helix though, wouldn't it make sense that the next step in evolution would be triple or even quadruple or more stranded helix?

And what exactly would that entail for our kind?

If a flower is a 20 strand (or other higher number) DNA, and they eat water and sun -how would we evolve if we listened to the "pyramid food guide" ?? How can we listen to a government telling us how we need to live -and still expect to be able to evolve, if our species can't diverge, or adapt to different situations there is no hope for us.

Magnetic foods?

I just sliced a banana from end to the other over two slices of bread.

These pieces of bread happened to be opposing ends; both rounded On one side balanced softly on the counter below smeared in their buttery peanut spread.

The banana was sliced evenly, as usual , and directly over the first slice of just browned toast, rolling off the knife; if A side was touching the topside of the knife while slicing, then when it fell off it rolled to z down, a up. However; as I but merely moved my position a dick to the left, the still evenly sliced pieces of the divinely ripened banana now slid gently off- if a side was now facing down and touching the top of the blade-it remained flat, sliding down to keep  A side on the peanuty cream.

Can anyone explain why this would happen?

The knife was likely magnetically charged due to the knife being held in place by a magnetic bar -- but could the banana or loaf of bread have that strong of a magnetic field as to change the magnetic pull?

If a banana, or loaf of bread could -- how could the moon NOT affect humans?

Or rather, a train? 

If parasites are often commonly found in our brains-proven to affect our behavior, why is it such a stretch to believe the magnetic field is just as affected? And what does it say about those more strongly pulled by magnets or parasites?

^^^^ that is an edit of v vvvv

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2 ends of a single loaf of bread having opposing magnetic fields to attract the pull of the banana being sliced above?

The banana slices starting flipping when sliced on the first piece of the loaf, and had not been flipping but instead, sliding off the knife of the precedingly layered end-piece of the same loaf. Indicating an opposing pull.

I wonder if that affects me when I eat it.
Or perhaps its just due to the fact that the knife had garnered a magnetic energy by being held in place by a magnet.


If our magnetic fields expanded to be actually strong magnets, like, we possessed a magnetic force within our bodies, but that force superimposed it so into the DNA strand so genetic magnetism.
There would have to be a "negative" and positive charge within humans to keep balance- would negative be bad?

Art.

http://www.techwench.com/scientists-invent-oxygen-particle-that-if-injected-allows-you-to-live-without-breathing/

Am I a good driver?

Sometimes I'm in the right frame of mind and I'm like.. *zoom zoom* (not in the Mazda though that was stick; that was all.. "Shit I stalled again") and I can weave in and out on the highway at like.. 130ish an hour and be feeling awesome and in the Zone...

Other times its more "oh shit!"...

*wipes other car clean and drives off*(I was 17. They were practically blocking me in. It was wrong)


.. Or. "I don't know what to do- Im hooked on the front bumper.
I CAN'T DRIVE OFF". (22.. I just don't drive now. And I park really far away from other cars. But also I have a tiny car now, I used to drive a boat, and my golden baby. I miss my truck 😭.. And at 27 I hope I would stay. )

I went to the cops that time:/. He was like "oh it's good you came here, most people drive off" I was like "it seems I don't know how to"

I don't like to get dirty, unless I'm going to get *really* dirty.
If I was really getting into my painting, I would paint my face too , because I had to have the feel of it all over.

Sadly, ain't nobody got time for that

Make it what you want

If you feel energy- do you try to decide what it is?
Like for example... Do you feel like.. "Fear prickling your spine"?

Or do you feel a sense of energy and use it towards your goals?

Basic example but if I were to say, go to the kitchen to get a drink and I felt a fear of what would happen..but instead of internalize that fear and letting it stifle me, i use it as just neutral energy that I decide to use towards positive energy - and use it to propel past my fear?
Such as.. Fear of the darkness, and walking into it..
Or fear of stranger and preparing to defend..
Acknowledging the initial wave but converting it to your needs.

I right now feel like courage and ascension are the same thing- Both to an extreme degree, just that they are on the same field.

Ghosts.

Lets say you had a ghost in your house, that changed appearances just slightly.
For example, a neat towel, would be hung angrily (and when I say angrily. I mean like, its just an angry looking hang. NOT that it was hung in anger.
Carelessness if anything.
But I digress; if things were changing so slightly, how could you be sure of your actions?

Ghosts man.
They can really fuck you up.

Sad fly

There is a fly in my house trying to crawl up my glass door. He gets so far, then starts.. Well, it looks like he is getting electrocuted.
Or perhaps like he is pushing against an electric force field and instead of falling he flew maniacally before dropping , often all the way to the bottom. 😢
He keeps trying, like he's an athlete training he has to make it to the top, but he's clearly weary and being smacked against the door repeatedly at these outbursts of energy.
The highest he has gotten is halfway up..
But when I was watching him he wasnt even getting 1/4 of the way. I stopped watching, I wondered if I was giving off a pulse because he kept falling so low, with consistency in location.

Ok he's half way right now!

3/4 of the way. I feel myself dropping with him each time he drops.. Struggling to push upwards as he does.

There is a larger fly at the top. I opened the door *my* fly is trying so hard to ascend, so he could have access at the top.
I wonder if they reach each other, and mate - if I changed the path of life? Perhaps these flies carry a virus, or learn to control the human mind?
I wonder if the human species would advance with flies at the human control center.. Crawling in when you are sleeping..

Is their spawn in my control?
If I trap them between the doors until they starve.. If I squish one, or both. If I let them mate and offer them home? Should I make a choice in controlling the outcome?


Here I thought the question was which door? But today its which door set, in which sequence?

(As an aside- I completely forgot about the flies after writing this.
If a fly virus kills us all.. Sorry. )

It's alive!!!
Seriously is that normal for dead vines to rejuvenate? I would have thought they would just become compost for the berries??


I'm having images of zombie strawberries not unlike the zombie carrots in monsters vs aliens.. Was I supposed to prune these back, and will my strawberries change at all because I didn't? Will they still be normal, edible strawberries?


I often visualize hybrid-produce.
Strawberries I mix with the marijuana plant and green onion - the stems obviously the onion, the leafy crown would be pot.

Would that not make the most awesomely potted edible life you could eat?

I worry the tastes would overlap though...
Green onion- strawberry doesn't appeal.
It should be ok if the flavor only mixed near where it converges.. You can pop off the green onion stem and cut out the pot flowering... Because strawberry flavored pot sounds like a tasty smoke.




Edit:: it totally died.

It's a changing world

If a gene mutates due to environment,
If the environment reverts back to what it was (originally for that gene)
Can the mutation reverse too?

Is it even possible or desirable for an environment to revert? Even with despairing results, long term could be more beneficial...

Red or blue

I don't know much about the reptilian conspiracy theory; just the belief the reptilians live inside government suits?. but I can't help but wonder - wouldnt they spread out? Wouldn't Their goal be population, once they were in the position to take control?
I just sometimes imagine reptiles in a large portion of our population..
I wonder if maybe religion was designed by hosts.. I would guess reptilian hosts would be considered demonic.

Memory trust

How strongly do you trust your memory?
Would you be able to bet someone else's life on your memory?

Countdown to 4:20

The morning Is lazy, and I think what the heck? This weather is gloomy, and I don't feel the power. But now as I see it, I feel its too soon.
I'm ready and raring - but the party can't start.
I feel a step closer, like tomorrow's the day, and I think of reptilians, invading presidential hosts, And paristitic aliens are the fear they are based on, but relly, 67% of South Americans have the parasite.. As I truly do wonder if that's what a soul. Is, that's what gives is our charge.
Our minds are but complex computers, they just need a source.
But can our minds choose our source?
Can we decide upon a parasite controlling us for mutual benefits?
Can we choose instead for a vitamin to propel us? Perhaps a quality of a quartz crystal (said to be the life force of Atlantians) is what provides life for some humans, and parasites - others.
Perhaps we have more controls?
Some exterior - controlling you (I'd like to edit this to add a photo from superman where an alien sticks a tentacle into the mouths I think of the people in smallville, and they all live under the aliens control?
Is our sun the only energy source? Are we all at the bidding of a sun- just believing its not intentionally controlling us?

Are we literally zombies at night? Is the moon it's own source of giving us life?


Why don't animals create technology on their own?
Occasionally monkies have... To a minor extent, but its not as predominant as with humans.. It's pretty much not dominant at all.
Does it have anything to do with them having ingrown weapons and shields?

I lose track of my point - but my point not forgotten- 4:20 approaches, ascension ablaze.
I sometimes forget that I'm early- and I believe that you are late.

Energy

Can you tell if something big is going down, even if you are not involved, and have no idea why you feel the way you do?

Is this what many people consider anxiety?

What if you think positive big things are going on.. Like you just feel waves of energy; maybe sometimes they are bad but at least as often, they are good?
Is that when people would start labeling "bi polar" or "manic depressive"?
Or Is that still anxiety? Or is anxiety limited to negative?

Personally I choose to believe I'm feeling the earths energies, but I'm curious what others think.

I'm feeling some energy right now, I just feel like something is shifting, and its powerful.
I feel like something bad could happen right now; I'm visually it's government based because I like to play corporal in my alter-ego. Split personality.


I can't tell if its related to weather, or people.


Editing to say it must have been weather because like 15 minutes later we had a few HUGE breezes, the wind is still quite powerful but no threats remain.
Maybe there never was a threat, it wasn't a scary feeling earlier..

But oh my, it was strong.

Master Monsanto

Which is worse - the food or the policy?

Can you separate the issues?



If I am re growing a vegetable stalk like Pinterest has shown me to do, that was produced with Monsanto patented genetic modifications am I -as a Canadian, or would I be if I was American - breaking the law?

Will Monsanto be the cause of world war three? How can a person or company force other countries to pay for their genetic mutations infiltrating others crops? Will he try?


Michele, this is for you
Sometimes I want to suggest art to you.
Like right now I'm picturing a stage with Obama as a what's it called.. Not marsupial - marrionate. Marrionate. I'm spelling it wrong.
Anyways with Monsanto controlling the strings. Obama is blue and very sad, and Monsanto is red, and gleefull looking.
And the stage is dark and gloomy.
That's just what I picture. I wish I could send you the image to draw.. And offer you money for your services.

Definition of whore right?
Monsanto will turn us all into prostitutes.

I don't believe hypochondria exists.
I think if you think something is off, something probably is - but I think the body is always trying to heal itself so I think most often the ailment heals, or is pushed down and grows later again.

... Is it obvious I'm a little high?..

Do you touch dead people? (Trigger)

Do you touch dead people?

I often see people at funerals touching the bereaved and I think how comforting that must feel; a kiss, or a clasp of the hand, or gentle stroke.. a beautiful way to say a final goodbye.
I find myself wanting to touch, wondering how it feels. working myself up to it "look! Another person touched! I can do it. Just hold it for 3 seconds, then you can wash your hands after."

In the same breath I'm thinking "How can you touch that!? I don't want to touch dead things!"
I imagine it must be cold, and I wonder how ill feel after? That's a big thing for me; knowing how ill feel after.
Sometimes I have this thing where I need my sides to balance my sides. It made gym class fun, when I hurt myself an felt compelled to hurt the other side... (Realizing that probably not normal.. Or maybe it is?)
It's really bad when its triggered by my NOT being ok with how the body feels. Now I am compelled to compulsively touch it with my other side too, despite fighting back a heebie jeebie dance.

Poo particles

Can you believe there are poo particles on everything??
So gross, right?
But makes me think, if these particles are abailAble on everything, what the fuck else is????

Why the fuck are we so worried About poo particles - thA have already been digested from our Bodies??


I don't have government conspiracy alert warnings
Fucking society conspiracy warnings!!!

Others or you; who's judgement matters?

So I was hanging with my friends (yah I have a few) and one of them wanted it borrow a marker to right "green" and "day" on her hands.
She, and myself and another, held our hands out imaging ourselves revealing our decal'ed hands,
Discussing who would be writing the letters, herself, or her boyfriend.
So I ask her the obvious question I see: do you plan on writing this for other people or for yourself?
Obviously the direction will matter.
She says others, so we agree the writing should be facing out.
Will, I have it question- do you hold your hands tips up to show others. Palms in your face, (or lower) with exuberation!
Or do you hold your hands down, expecting others to avert their eyes.

Is that why? I ponder the reasoning why some splay their fingers upwards, and others down.

I wonder if it has to do with others precepts; like, of they look up to others they splay them in front of their face.or if they look down to others they splay them down.
Yes.
I love the word splay

Homosexual

I'm very supportive of all sexualities.
But, I'd like to discuss the idea of choice.
Is homosexuality something you were born with? And on the other side- is heterosexuality something you were born with?
Or, does your sexuality lie upon a thin line of Kinsey scale?
Can you be "Homosexual" and revert or convert to heterosexual?
Or are you born just one, and that is how you live your life out?
Do the majority of people fall somewhere within a scale where they find themselves attracted to both sexes, maybe 99/1.. Or 1/99.

Full moons

I bet parasites have better access to infiltrating the human genome on a full moon what with its brightness in the dark for easy visuals.

Just think about that next full moon everyone's acting a little "off"

Parasites (take 2). Just to show a more raw perspective. Unedited as the first.. Mostly because its so dirty I don't know where to start cleaning up lol)

Ok so from what I gather; our skin is home to "skin flora" or bacteria, virii, we are just a Huge embodiment of life thriving while other tinier life forms thrive on us.
Well! I welcome those other life forms. Often enough, we are "mutually beneificial" like spiders eating other bugs. Fucking killing spiders- they are a homes army.
So I enjoy germs.
I shower cosistently, I just don't soap from head to toe.
I appreciate the mutations they do to cells in my body, allowing to me acquire qualities the parasites find beneficial...
It's like, we have multiple realities to our single universe, and while most people tend them off with soap or antibacterials, other, like me, are welcoming and saying hey. What's up. i feel strongly about this but let's see how we'll we can work together.
I have no problem saying "you are the weakest link. Goodbye"
But it far from my favorite expression.
Seriously.

I had an abortion

And fuck you if you judge me.
I've got fertility to share. So I did. I shared it by aborting the fetus that was growing inside me that I felt love for. But knew I had so very little chance at being able to provide for it.
I like to believe that I gave life back to the earth for others, not excluding myself. But mostly as a bunch of tiny happy little fertile molecules recycled back into the earth.
I wished it well on its journey and hoped that the bulk of it would adapt quickly in a new environment .. While creating a happy trail of life behind it.
I'm sorry The situation was not right, but something better is awaiting it. Whether that be me in the future or someone else, i just know that me- right now- is not the final surprise.

Joy. (Trigger.)

What is joy?
I take great joy in offering perspectives.
I don't even care if its opposing to my perspective, I believe and understand there are thousands or millions of different perspectives out there and each of them just as " right" as the other. I can find joy where others find disappointment, despite your lack of happiness for sad news, I believe without a doubt that somewhere, sometime. Happiness is occurring to balance all despair.
Neither are wrong, both Happen. Relish both.

But relish is kinda gross. I prefer pickles

I'm drunk

I'm starting my blog while I am drunk.

Why
Because that's when I am most courageous.
I constantly second guess myself thinking of every single perspective that could possibly be offended by MY perspective.
There are lots of you, and to you I say :: deal with it.
I'm not "normal" but I'm happy with who I am.
I find myself to be enjoyable company. No other required!
But simultaneously, I LOVe company.
Come over. Entertain me. Make my day.
I am odd and think of unusual things, but I Always have joy to give you,
If I have no joy, please offer me some- because I can take a smidgen and turn it into a Dallop. Ad a Dallop into an ounce.

(Sober edit - I don't really have much joy to give actually that's a lie. I'm not bubbly.. But, I do have a lot of good shit to offer... Like peace in hard times.. Understanding.. Compassion.. I just thought I was being poetic in the last two sentences. :))

Pilot

what is it about Humans that make us, us?
Or bodies thriving with millions of bacteria?
Our mind, being controlled by a parasitic creature?
Our possibly non-existent soul?
What inside us tells us to remove the parasites, wash away the bacteria, kill the virus (of which only 99% are harmful)
I wonder if our existence without any other life teeming amongst our organs be as fulfilling as it is now.

Are the life forms encroaching upon our bodies what are evolving, giving us technology they can only think - but direct our bodies to build?
Our bodies have hardly changed a lick since we've stood straight up.
Seems like someone's finding year bodies useful.
Do you know who's maneuvering your body?

What if parasites are aliens?
What if people go crazy on the full moon, because its some kind of prime time for them to infect their hosts?

What if their apparent lack of function is just the parasite biding its time until it plans to take over our minds, and all other minds- zombifying us, and utilizing our bodies?
What if some bodies have already been taken over by these parasites.. Perhaps the intelligence of our species is actually in the parasites, and while they keep themselves from being tested, they are already taking over?
..

Exciting links!

http://www.americanscientist.org/bookshelf/pub/the-dark-side-of-dna

http://ca.news.yahoo.com/humans-controlled-tiny-parasites-180652943.html

http://scienceblogs.com/notrocketscience/2008/10/05/toxoplasma-the-brain-parasite-that-influences-human-culture/

http://www.cracked.com/article_17199_the-7-most-horrifying-parasites-planet.html